As I see it.

Name? Selene, I'll try to describe myself as much as I can, so maybe there's at least one person who can understand me, maybe even feeling the same way as I am.

Selene's point of view:

"I am a very thoughtful girl. I'm funny sometimes, quiet, shy, mature, I try to be different from everyone else, I'm not innocent at all, even though sometimes innocence is what I desire the most. I'm very competitive, and sometimes even selfish, I know what's out there, in the real world, where parents can't take responsibility of your acts, and I know I am prepared for that, but even though, I'm scared, very scared. I know I have a long journey to cover, but I also know that it can be seized from me in less than one minute, I know there's only one chance to live, to do great things: good or bad, I know my young age won't last forever, and I know I'm not a little girl anymore, and I feel like I'm wasting so much time doing ordinary things, trying to get ordinary goals, that people (parents, teachers, family, friends) think are the most important things in life, and while you waste your time trying to get those insignificant things, compared with what you really can do, time goes on and when you realize this, you're sitting in a chair, with kids running and jumping all over calling you grandpa, or grandma. This is a huge cycle that 90% of the people have followed, but you know, that 10% left inspires me to make myself something else than just a woman with a career. I admit I used to think like that, I even did a kind of graphic of my life or future in a sort of way, like if I would do it, really think about it, this is a tough and scary question that I've been scared to ask because of the answer i could get, or the NO answer:
What's the point of living?

Is not that I don't want to live, of course, I want to live, but with a reason. I'm not the kind of person who doesn't care about one single thing and that do anything with no reason, believe me, I HAVE TRIED to be like that, but i just CAN'T. Well just asking this depresses me, and I've been taught, I mean I'm supposed to know the answer, that's why I keep this question to myself, I'm not perfect and I don't have the answers for everything, even though people thinks that, and even me, but I don't know it all, that's a fact! I have been noticed that this isn't a free space, just like 14 days free, well then I'll be writing here for 14 days, I hope you like it, and I hope to get an answer to the question."



God bless you all,
Selene.